sixteen

You were different than what I expected.
You looked different than I expected-
You were very midwestern, of healthy stock.

And not that I didn't expect you to be kind-
But you were so kind and so gentle.
So sensitive to my inexperience-
To my young, overwhelmed, love-sick mind.

Thank you for letting me love him.
Thank you for making me beautiful on our night out.
I remember thinking, as you were pinning curls to my head, that you were blessing me with your love and approval, that you were placing a crown on my head.

I saw your heart melt as he did kind and loving things for me-
And I loved you for raising him that way; and for loving him for loving me.

I remember you today with fondness wishing that I could give you a hug for the lovely example you lived for me.

fifteen

You are one of the most beautiful things I have seen-
Your natural beauty radiates spiritual confidence.
Any extra color would be lost in the heavenly colors that brighten your cheeks.

And I know that you are often close to tears- your pain is great. But those tears sparkle like diamonds in your eyes and on your cheeks.

You shine with grace: grace for others.

I don't really talk to you; but I listen to what you have to say-
and I love to look at you.

And I appreciate the direction of your heart...

fourteen

I want to be the light of your eyes
the warmth of your soul
The everything and more
You could ever ask for
I love you
But it takes you loving me too
Not by your words-
(Just) throw them to the wind
Give me your actions,
The motivation behind them.
And you will find yourself
As the light in my eyes.

thirteen

Lover, fall onto me
Fall into me
And stretch about
Let the sun- my love-
Warm your skin
Be comfortable, be warm
As the heat grows stronger
It becomes sustinence-
A heart beat, life and breath
Moments lengthen
Boundaries are erased
Are you me?
Or are you just in me?
There is nothing left
But to face Him

twelve

Search deep-
It will be there
Bright with light
Please care!

Hope is the ray
Full of power!
Start to believe
Right this hour!

Turn the hate
Into love-
Need help?
Ask the ONE above.

Revenge?!
Not really the key
Only move on-
Can’t you see?

Reaching for the future
And sharing what you’ve learned
Will defeat the evil
Letting goodness take its turn.

eleven

I imagined I saw you
But instead of calling out your name
I let you walk by
You’re a stranger now
Nothing that connected us
Continues to exist
I live on- thinking
With a little sadness
How things turned out.
Life is quite ironic
And keeps me interested
With its little twists

ten

I wonder about your kiss-
Is it comforting?
I wonder about your eyes-
Will they view me fondly- unconditionally?
I wonder about your arms-
Are they always able to hug- instantly?
I wonder about you-
Would you be happy with me?
I wonder about me…