forty-three

I thought of you again...
I wish had I been ready for you-
I wish I had been more like the me I am now, then the me I was then.

And, even as I say that, I know that I am presently me because of you. Thank you for loving me and for unabashedly treating me with every bit of love and care in your heart. I wish I could tell you how much it meant, how big of an impact you've had in my life. Our time was so short and yet, I remember the challenge of desire - so fresh and sharp - keenly. Its aroma rolls over me and lingers.

If I could go back, I'd grab your face and kiss it - and you'd know how I feel.